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Weihey. . .
2010 and im still thinking of 2009! Jakarta was great, really missed the place and peeps there. 2010 kicked off in Jakarta and expecting a whole of shit coming my way, A WHOLE LOT!

Voiced at 12:15 AM on 06 January 2010

Kalau nak rempit, bukan di Singapore.

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So, been up and working since, school and also work, and been busy getting RX-Z done and working well. Currently having alot of things to get. Totally forgot that BIRTHDAY is around the corner! HAHA! Not expecting presents because I don't really get them for other people. So ya, I guess the Z have been present to me, a present which I think is going to last long. Mum just found out that Z was as old as M, older to be exact! She was mad, and I've been ensuring her that its no biggie. Mum and Dad have been constantly reminding me to be safe on the road. I did, and will, put all my tempts aside. I already brought her to the doctor twice. Look like she is doing good.

School have been hard on the head lately, been busting some stupid mathematics shit really. I could really die of doing this. For work, its going well. Making alot friends with just a smile.=) Been working late night just to get some money for Z, mom, myself. I've been trying to stop getting off from mom lately. Maybe I could manage my own petrol money and normal allowances but from the look of things, its not happening yet. I pity mom alot, she's having trouble with brother lately, and he's getting on my nerves about all this money thingy. Maybe not to go to the extend into this. So yeah, I wanna help mom and myself. =)

Voiced at 12:14 PM on 10 November 2009

November!

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WAH! What a great way to start the month! Spend the 1st night with me two mates, dancing to Bushmen till morning!! HAHA! Ouh and a new family member soon to come! RX-Z! =)

Voiced at 2:15 PM on 02 November 2009

Truth that hurts doesn't really hurt as rumours behind your back.

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The other day I've been chatting with Wan, one of the earlier riders in our clique. The tzm racer. As I had much respect for me, he too did the same, but once in awhile we do joke around.
So was chatting about his tzm and about him hitting the tracks soon. Then I ask him the for the honest truth of all, because I heard from my own brother that people are saying that I can't ride half as good as my brother, I'm the cause of problem for M and also that I'm letting down my bro's rep. I mean come on, 6 months, I can't do all that in 6 months. Obviously people don't know. Oh well.

Then I asked Wan, was it me who was the root of the problem for the bike, and he said "this gonna hurt" and said yes! I mean I didn't feel as bad as I did when bro came up to me and say "eh, budak2 cakap kau tak tau bawak motor" and everything else, fine, now people should know why im getting that RX-Z.

Voiced at 8:14 AM on 23 October 2009

Ooops, major failure.

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Oooops! This is one of the major failure this year, aww, failed the car TP. That's fine, anything's free for change. Gonna book book, and keep booking. Maybe it that achievement quota for this year. Too much achievements for this year. In fact, another has just came rolling today. RX-Z soon! Mom didn't want me to get any 2nd or 3rd hand bike, so she insisted the 1st hand one, first thing in mind RX-Z. TZM tolak tepi sudah, tapi masih sayang ah. Kasi tu bahalol jaga motor sendiri, aku je jage, baru brape bulan semua aku kene. Tapi nasib tak kene langgar ngn kereta ituhari, confirm2 mati katak.

Rx-z lah bradder, no choice. Tapi Ducati mesti ada jugak! HAHA!

Voiced at 12:30 PM on 14 October 2009

25ml to 1 litre

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I miss that. Hahaha.
Okay, M is doing great on vacation I hope, I decided to halt some changes on her, like her paint work and also some other stuffs. I think I only need her to be at her best state when I get her again. I went to Johor with bro and some of the other mates to hand some money for M's repair. I've been dreaming of her new paintwork every day but I guess it will take a longer time to make that dream come true. Oh well.

All is well for the first 6th days of Raya. One of my dad's uncle came by and wanted to hand my dad and me some things which my dad kinda declined, he said I wasn't prepared for it and it could bring bad news if I am not prepared, so I guess I have to prepare myself. Speaking of preparations, my car TP test is 3 weeks away and I have no idea on how to park or do some of those things on car. Damn! I'm dead. I guess.

I've been putting much time on work and stuffs like Raya and all. Oh ya! Can't wait to go out with friends, have some Raya gathering and stuffs. Gain my weight again. AGAIN!

Raya's not helping actually. Oh well, I know there is something I cannot control. =)

Salam.

Voiced at 3:10 AM on 26 September 2009

Another wonderful month.

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We come well prepared and now its time to say goodbye to another holy month of the year. Its saddening really, seeing a month past so fast. Maybe not much people are really valuing this month, because maybe the don't realise that maybe we may not see another holy month like this, I'm proud to say that I managed to go through the whole month without not fasting. I also managed to control my emotions, and I also met someone new, I mean a friend, every ramadhan I do! =) I wish that maybe one day I'll get to meet her soon.

The other day, 2 weeks or so, I spent the whole morning since 2 till sahur reading the Quran, because I wasn't being myself, I lost my consciousness to thin air. I remember reading page after page before having a short nap while waiting for sahur, and yet again like every other ramadhan I cried, because I felt a presence, unexplainable, a positive force in my room. My dad says it couldn't have been evil because its the holy month, and it wasn't either, it gave me calamity and peace. I've been remembering Granny everytime I listen to the sad Raya songs on the radio. I miss her very much, 12 years still hadn't moved any thought of her. Maybe she live peacefully just like Dad's Father, and Dad's Grandpa. I'm sure they are living peacefully down there. I know they are. =)

(cont'd)

So today was the last day for terawih prayers and I couldn't make it, I guess I'll carry on with my own prayers and maybe do some Quran reading till sahur. The thing is, as hard as I can get, people know I'm soft some where in here *the heart*. Its really one of those nights when you feel you are at the most peaceful state of mind, you read the Quran, it will nurture the feeling and you know you are ready for tomorrow. Every Raya, there's always something nice happening to me, in my room, but its not really enough to be written here. I wish there really is a blessing this month because everything have been good for me.

Exams results was okay for me, got 3.5 for my gpa, didn't expect that at all, seriously. Word out is that schools starting at Oct 19, which means I can still work more to get my bike all shaped up for the year. =)

To folks, and friends, new and old, lost or found, here's wishing you Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri, Maaf Zahir dan Batin. Kalau ade jarum yang patah jangan di simpan di dalam peti, kalau ada kata-kata yang salah jangan di simpan di dalam hati.

Salam Aidilfitri.

Voiced at 10:54 PM on 17 September 2009

Would it really matters?

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A tiring day at work, spent 16 hours at work. Although its really a great place to work. I couldn't stand the mats there, but wth, everywhere we go, there is always one! So I got to do most of the easy jobs. M was having problems lately, and then my brother has just decided to do away with it, sell it to the shop or something, then I didn't talk to him for the whole day. Even mom too. I feel bad actually, but all and all, I know its my fault, even the kids told my brother how reckless I am on the road and how mean I am to M, but they couldn't understand. KORANG YANG TAK PAHAM, JANGAN MACAM PAHAM AH. So much to say, I'm planning to leave M for a 'vacation' down by the doctor's shop, and maybe pick her up when she's well and 'new'. By hook or by crook, I will never want to sell that bike and if I have too, I'll tear the paintwork apart, I'll keep all the parts and exchange them local parts, because I don't want to see the bike with some mat rep, abang2 design, or racer wannabe on it in the future. I'd rather scrap it then selling it. I AM MEAN. I AM YAT.

Voiced at 5:55 PM on 09 September 2009

I am okay.

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Don't worry, I have survived a thousand falls before, what makes you think I won't survive this time. Its not the love that I am longing for, its the time and company that we humans are a so used to having. I long for that and I know you wouldn't be the same even for the moment we saw each other, the past seemed to have hunt and killed that feeling between us, girl. I know, because I felt it way way too much. If its indifference thats breaking us apart, I wouldn't have put the slightest hope on you. Thats why I thought for a moment, I was blessed. I will survive this fall.

Voiced at 5:47 PM on 29 August 2009

Damn you Mkom.

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I know this is weird, but the I just got fined for modified exhaust, its weird when you get caught for things that you didn't do, I didn't do this, my brother did! So the thing is Mkom, I'll curse you for hailing me down that fateful day, I curse you that you wouldn't be celebrating Raya this year, you are such a pain in the arse Mkom. You can go around doing what you people do best, catching people with not much illegal modifications.

How about the matreps and mat mat designs, asal dorang tak kene? Ape malam dapat pe kalau tak tangkap dorang, come on please, you guys are bullshit you have alot of other people to spot and you spot this kid with a P-plate riding to school! You guys are plain bullshit, you guys don't make the road safe, what can a modified exhaust do to the road compared 'sotong' tyres and racing modified bikes, come on, my bike wasn't modified for racing, you guys are crap! If I were to race, I would buy myself a racing suit and head for the track. You guys waste my time and effort to change back to the stock exhaust and still charge me $500, so what am I going to eat? Sand? The bike already gave me problems and its all because of you and then you still have the cheek to charge $500. I'm vexed, really I am.

Voiced at 3:16 PM on 25 August 2009

Is is or is it not.

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Maybe all these while, someone really stood by me, not physical but through these emotional storm that's brewing. Maybe she has been there and done that, to say what happens next, what to do and what to not do. Someone who keeps pushing me before I fall, and eventually will fall but slowly. She helps me ease the pain, so much to that, we will share it. Like talk things out. Sometimes I thought to myself why did we not contact for the whole year of last year. Why? Maybe I was dumbstruck. Whatever the reasons were, it did not last, she's an overall a great person to be with. Someone who doesn't bother to give up friendship for a relationship that she know has a low probability of lasting. She know who she is, when she read this, she knows, or maybe she's that belo~ haha~

Voiced at 12:53 AM on 11 August 2009

Not much of a great weekend.

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Went for Sheesha with mates and we kinda left early. That to me thats not the main part. The bike just made a decision to bail on me again! Seriously I was about to send it for service today but I already PUSHED it into m'sia yesterday night, thanks to Dan. It was an adventure. So won't be seeing baby M in a while, cause I need some funds to back up for all the repairs, and maybe a new paintwork, then again, maybe not.

Voiced at 11:07 AM on 10 August 2009

Long Long holiday

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4 days of rest and enjoy and fun had started yesterday!
Went to neighbour's bbq pit, East Coast Park sucks ah, seriously, the parking lots and the pits, are so far apart! Then off to watch G.I Joe! Cool movie, a MUST WATCH! I have much much more plans ahead, oh ya, I've decided not to catch any fireworks this year because, it kinda reminded me of something of last year. Hmmm and also I'm not proud to be a Singaporean, to be honest, because I've learnt about the true Singapore, the bullshit that have been with this country! Tomorrow, meeting them mates, for Sheesha and also before that, have to head to Local bike shop.
Sunday, is total busy day, got a wedding and also some 'kenduri', then maybe head to Forum, if I'm free. Monday, is long awaited, a visit to the best bike shop in the world! Haha! Need to get somethings done on the bike and also put that ZZZ on my M! I mean our M.

Oh yeah, I'm missing someone, but I can't decide who I missed most! =(

I still have that temptation to get that full face helmet, just that, it wouldn't go right on with my bike~ haha!

Voiced at 2:29 AM on 08 August 2009

Wouldn't it be nice?

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Suddenly, I feel all messed up.

Besides waking up all cranky and mad, for two days in a row, I've not been having good sunshiny days lately. Maybe this weekend outing with them mates shall do the trick. How would I know that things are not going to be my way this week. Its a totally shit week, to me. My guesses are they are more to come, just hope that Ramadhan this year is going to be way better than last year~

Now besides the long bus-rides home, the long hours in school are also keeping me away from spending time at home as much and I'm supposed to continue this for another 2 years plus, darn! I need to get some transport in, I was thinking of any normal bike, because this current bike that we are sharing seems to attract too much attention! =(

Voiced at 9:32 PM on 05 August 2009

This is my country! Err no! This is HIS country~

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Come on, everybody knows that Singapore is not a democratic country! Darn rite it doesn't. I wish to move some place elsewhere. I guess maybe Malaysia! Err no, no, worse! Haha!

Its been a long long time since we've really got a plan rite? I mean, next Monday is really looked forward to. I'm so not going for fireworks! It will be a busy day, but well paid of course! So yes! Monday is going to be a happy happy day I hope! =)

Voiced at 11:40 PM on 03 August 2009

Weekend Kaboom!

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So Sunday, I couldn't make it for Rhaimy's gig because we ended late but I didn't miss a chance to go to Hard Rock and party! Met up with them mates at Forum and we made our way to HRC. I can bet with you, that almost all the people there were drinking but I managed to NOT DRINK, because I remembered people telling me not to, and also I was riding, don't want to end up at the wrong side of the law. The vibe and atmosphere there was great, besides not having alot of mats and minahs, we have abang-abangs and kakak-kakaks which was more of a better replacement. The songs were great, the crowd! Chicks were hot too, but mostly taken, but c'mon, in clubs, its so hard to be protective of your girl, when she's all drunk and wild you know! So it ended at 3! and I reach home at 3.20. Fast eh? HAHA! The road was damn empty I tell you.

Voiced at 4:56 PM on

Saturday Saturday Saturday.

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What else you gonna do on a Saturday?

I'm going out! Gathering today with the folks from last November's DJ course, after almost a year of not meeting up, finally. We are going to a karaoke session I guess. Can't wait. Yesterday spent an hour or so alone. Plug in to my mp3 and went off for a ride. Sort of a reflection kinda ride, alone mah. Ended up in the west end of Singapore! Then headed to Forum, from which headed home without entering the Expressway, cool huh! Then got a call from Nabeel! Going out with Sharul and Ruzaini, again another ride to Changi where had some drinks and slack till 2. Which was kinda boring, going out with 4-strokes folks. HAHA! Then it was home time, but when I got home! The family already went to Changi to have supper. I wanted to join though but I guess I need to keep up to the vow of 2 meals per day only. So far this week had been a success!

Tomorrow's gonna be a long long day. Got a wedding to attend and maybe to Rhaimy's gig, then off to Hard Rock Cafe, with who? Alone I guess but I did drop Syed a message to put me on the guestlist *ni bukan world okay! ni betol betol*. So ya, just in case. Anyway, I tried to get people to join, but everybody has school on the Monday. I'm starting late, so its fine to me.

Voiced at 11:22 AM on 01 August 2009

Apa khabar kawan, long time no see.

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Thursday was spent with Farhana, I managed to convince her to accompany me record the sunset and we did!!
Weekend was weak! Friday ended late, because we had a test at 6 and ended at 7.30. So spent time with poly mates till 1030 and headed home. Saturday went well. Met up with poly mates to watch a band which one of them was playing at Heeren. Then at around 7, met up with Yan Violent and Man Kembar at Forum. We talked alot, more than before. They shared their stories and I kinda feel sad that things really have changed, and they also told me, how the upset the old boys were to learn about this situation. I told them, I tried my best but people changed, heads grow bigger. 3 hours was so short and they was more to talk about. They headed off to work, while I met up with the kampong mates. We hang out until my brother came so I parked the bike and got into the car, and we went for a quick drive-thru at mac for some desserts. We talked until 4 and we went home! However I've got a mission! So I tried my luck calling Miss Girl and she was up! So I asked if she wants to go out, accompany me record the sunrise! So I picked her up and off we went to Merlion Park. Great sunrise but I was so tired that I couldn't talk much when I was on the bike. Sent her home, sent myself home, put myself on the bed and heaven.. It was 9.

At 11. Mom woke me up! Told me that the family was going for breakfast! I was so pissed off but she told me we are going to Bedok Corner, then my stomach told me, lets go! Haha! Long time since I had Nasi Ayam Penyet. It was great. Went home with thoughts of just having a powernap. Then ended up I had a long sleep till 6! Haha!
I was like 'there goes my weekend'. Then them mates called and said that they are going to find some table tennis bats and play ping pong at night. We made our way to Giant then Mustafa until we decided on one of the bats. They set it up while I went to buy dinner. Then we played until around 12. I mean, I played until 12 and managed to end the night all good.

Voiced at 9:22 AM on 20 July 2009

Weekends~

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Friday met up with Forum mates, tried to catch with some stuffs, then headed for kampong again~ Nothing much.
Saturday was kinda worst, was supposed to go to JB and get back by 3 or 4. The service took a long time and it ended at 8 was pissed off! So I was like, wtf sia, met the guys again at kampong. Then they were thinking of going out for a ride, but everybody ended up going for supper and HOME! HOME you know! So I was double pissed off, until Shabir asked me to accompany him send Khabir home. So I was okay, hmmm something fishy, I WAS DAMN RIGHT! =) haha! half an hour later I was with him, doing 160 down from punggol to jalan kayu. TWICE! haha! Sometimes people teach you all this bad things just for the feel, don't do it frequently. There goes my Saturday and Sunday was really unexpected was supposed to meet someone, in the morning but she ended up going to Johor without telling. So I was pissed off, so I went to watch Syahid, Zuhair and Epul skate at the newly-built skate park at ECP. Cool Shite, but I didn't skate so it was boring ah. Then again I was trying to get to that girl. However it was only at 10 that she told me she wanted to hang out. So I picked her up by her place and went to McD's drive thru and went to somewhere only we know. It was all nice and sweet moment but nothing was more than just friends. =) Seriously. Then after all was done, I send her to her workplace at 2 in the morning and left her! WAIT, don't think of me as a bad guy or something. She insisted and I was running late! =) So ya. Sunday was that best day of the weekend! =)

Voiced at 9:50 AM on 13 July 2009

There goes my Saturday~

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Was out on Friday night with mates to Changi Beach, planned for a BBQ night out, and also an overnight stay. Talked crap for the whole night till the morning~ came home at around 9, and had to follow service the family car. Left early, slept in the bus home. Which was only for a few minutes. Reached home, packed up and left for JB! Reached at 12 on the dot, got most of the things fixed at around 6. However, the brake light was giving a problem. Thus we couldn't fix it so I had to go because it was already 9! The road was damn scary at night, serious shit. I was so glad to pass by Singapore's checkpoint all safe and sound and was enjoying my smooth ride powered by V-Power fuel! It really makes a difference ah and so! =)

Voiced at 9:47 AM on 05 July 2009