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Why the hell are you anti-religion, I don't fucking know. What is wrong being in a religion? Is it a wall stopping you from socialising or isit a trap to stop people from drifting too far in life. I don't understand songs of anti-religion lyrics. Like seriously.
There was once a guy who told me, there's this band, they all fucking anti-christ and shit. And their songs are all very brutal and scorning religion, but actually behind the scenes they are really christians, why the fuck? HAHA! that's funny. To me, they are fucking posers, seriously, you guys need to wake up and go back to day when you were born.
Yes I'm talking about BLACK METAL or whatever those shit is, sorry, I don't believe in your way of life, your way of expressing things, because the way you are expressing your hate for religion with your lyrics of wanting to kill a religion is nothing but just poser shit. Because the only thing thats burning in hell is you guys.
Just a head up. Stop fucking about with this stupid scene, its just music, it ain't a way of life.
Voiced at 11:22 AM on 27 February 2009
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Hope is again haunting me. Sounds wrong but yes it is. Every single time I'm going to sleep it will snap into my mind like a waves, washing away all the bad thoughts, but then again, I will never ignore bad thoughts, because they help to really see the future. I ignored them once and see what happened. hmph.
So God have showed my the light for once. thank you.
The project was not done properly and I'm dead pissed at it! =(
hmmmph!
Voiced at 12:01 AM on
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4 months was really really long you know~
But I'll still wait for you man~
I kept remembering the day we first got on stage and you were moshing with so much pride. I'm missing you, although we didn't talked much when we meet the other time but you, someone I held up so high.
When you get out, I'll sing a song! We'll unite as Forum Bootboys again and if you were to be a junkie again, I'll fucking beat you up, I swear. I'll wait for you cousin.
Voiced at 7:09 PM on 26 February 2009
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My brother told me, "just because of one stupid bitch doesn't mean you are a goner, there many other stupid bitches out there." and I said, "I'm not looking for stupid bitches, I'm looking for a girl." and he fucking laughed.
I managed to release my tension to and fro TP. Damn, I feel my legs are coming off soon. Then I managed to just go on, LIKE I USED TO FOR SO LONG.
Notice the song, its for you. You are.
Voiced at 11:28 PM on 23 February 2009
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My weekends was kinda boring I guess.
Friday: Went jogging and football with mates. Then it was home.
Saturday: Went to cityhall to get glares of disgrace. Damn stupid town kids. Walk too much and yeah was tired but no! Went to meet brother and the rest to wash the car and as usually have the saturday night/sunday morning slack time. Watch Shootaz in the car and it was Sunday morning.
Sunday: Had only 4 hours of sleep. Yes. Was woken up by Sharul. Then got ready to the gig. I was performing with some of the friends and Sharul. It went okay, I mean it was irritating. When you have a vocalist who can't sing and a guitarist who can't play. nope, I'm not dissing, its the fact. However when I tried to cover up for him like, singing and yet playing the drum at the same time, he kinda got pissed. So what?
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I've been like all around town lately.
Being lost but not found maybe.
Since days are gone and months are too.
I'll pray to God that I'll see you.
Damn, pretty bored. I download a trial version of Virtual DJ and been like trying to figure out how to get a good mix you know. So yeah. I've lost my appetite lately because I was saving money but everytime I got home, my wallet's all empty you know. I now defeat my hunger with home foood, because its FREE!
I've been wantin to change my guitar strings, but that's me, even before the current ones are still okay, I feel like I should change them. Maybe soon.
My plans for tonight was to head town and get someone to come along with me, but obviously, people are busy with exams and also work and not to forget with their loved ones. So I'm planning to head town tomorrow because that's the only place I can find peace in myself, just like how Tini did at the river. I prefer people with places but not as much people as Tekka. So yeah, head town and get a drink, a halal one of course because I've stopped drinking totally. Come to think of it, YES! I'm straight-edge for once but I still don't fulfil some of the criteria. So yeah. Going to jog my ass off tonight and football tooo.
Voiced at 7:13 PM on 20 February 2009
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I miss all those dearly friends I had. Everybody~ =)
Voiced at 1:02 AM on
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Up down touch the ground!
=)
Damn, i'm bored!! Today finished school and went to friend's house and thats it, fullstop. Happy Happy times!
So then, I'm home, the day seems short, but actually its long and sweaty! okay!
=)
nothing much to post now actually! Only that, I'm here for any listening ear as usual=)
Voiced at 12:02 AM on
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Headache!
Muscle aches!
Brain ache?
Heartache!
Ouch ouch! Began the day with failure of prac 8 for the fucking 3rd time! Then it was prac test at school! Nailed it, I guess. Then it was home again. Then for a short while, slack with mates at kampong. Then went jogging after so many donkey years of not doing so. The haze was not helping! Then went to slack again, and home home home! There's a test later at school and guess what? I'M NOT PREPARED! Damn! For once!
Ending on a good note. Thanks Farhana and Tini for words of wisdom or simply just for waking me up. I'll try to make it up to you girls alright! Now! I need to MUG!
Voiced at 12:30 AM on 18 February 2009
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Tell me something new.
When people don't mention your name, maybe they just forget you and the times you had. Maybe they don't fucking care about you anymore do they. Could it be that it was all so clear from the beginning? Sometimes I really wish I was loner, a bummer to say the least. Forget what had happened and looked forward to a brighter day, which eventually will rot like all the other days. I'm back to the fuck-the-world-and-the-people-in-it attitude. Since being myself is not really helping is it? Darn, people just don't know how to appreciate. I'm hurt, truly I am. Fuck, I'm a skinhead or whatever you call me. I'm human man. Just human. I have a heart. I'm pouring everything out but I bet no one really gives a fuck, until the day I go seven feet under, God knows, who will still pray for me, cry for me or even be there at my wake.
Tell me something new, please.
Friends, what will the world be without them. Good or bad. I can't be bothered anymore. I'm sorry. I just had enough of the ouh-yat-doesn't-need-much-attention attitude. Yes, you guys will disagree, but you know, sometimes you guys may have that short term memory that needs some help with. Yes, I'm attention seeking, yes in my blog I am but not outside, because I know, people won't have the time to even care. Its not the same anymore. Never will it be.
Negativity is here and is here to stay. Without a doubt it is casting a shadow in my life. A shadow that shades out all the positivity and happiness that I USED to have. The smile that I don't mind showing. Damn the world.
Sorry friends but I'm not used to be who I used to be.
don't tag if you don't know what to say.
don't assume if you don't know anything.
don't think that you aren't the one referred to above.
Voiced at 12:17 AM on 17 February 2009
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After tonight, I know where I stand, who I am truly, who my true friends are, who are the ones who really cared, why I ever put myself in this way of life, why I tried my best to even be half the person I was.
People just kinda forget the good times I guess. Maybe its a change we all have to face. I mean, who really cares about Yat anyways. I mean seriously, a boy, half of the person that he used to be, constantly hated, always talked about and doesn't give a fuck about strangers.
Tonight, marks it all. I know a reason, a reason for each reason tht people have, to hate me, to push me aside and to forget me for who I am.
I'm done.
Voiced at 12:36 AM on 16 February 2009
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Okay! Really random title!
Yesterday went fishing again! No fish again!
In fact, there wasn't even wind! Hmmm! Not our luck!
Well, I think I'm all prepare babe, despite the injury.
Voiced at 1:40 AM on 15 February 2009
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I kinda neglected myself for the past two or three months. I've stopped jogging because of lack of motivation and everything that happened prior to 2009. I miss alot of people. Too much to think that I've lost all my friends. I think 2009 was actually nothing different than 2008 and the year before.
Its not the same people just the same words and laughters and joy and lies and anger. I know I know, I'm winding too much but this is what that has been going on and on in my mind. To tell the truth, about my real life, no a single soul knows about it. To tell the truth, I can't trust half the person I trusted before. To tell the truth, I'm living behind this mask of confusion on who I am really about.
Its not about the crew, the mates or the chicks. Its about me? What's going to happen 2 or 3 years down the road. I don't know, GOD knows. I wanna go out alone, but people tell me, you gotta watch your back, you gotta keep your eyes peeled. I know you are concerned about me but to me life can end anywhere. Even when I'm standing here alone. I know mates can have my back, but when I'm alone. I'm not really alone. God is there. The two angels are there.
I really need someone to wake me up. To get me going on. To make me realise that I'm not going to be alone all the time. Please~
Voiced at 1:09 AM on 12 February 2009
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This is what happened!
Monday night went fishing! Because coincidentally everybody did not have school/work the next day. We didn't catch much, but the wind was great!
Then tuesday spent the whole day with bro and dad, tinting the car windows, servicing the car and changed the rims! =) Then went to meet Nabeel down at Far East to get a new belt to replace my old one!
Yeah!
Wednesday is school day!
Voiced at 11:39 AM on 11 February 2009
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Yesterday spent the whole night with bro and mates. We wash my family car and then we had supper by Safra Tanah Merah. Then slacked until 5.30 am. We got home at 6 and I was snoring away in the car. Yes! Tired! I went to bed immediately, only to wake up at 12,! less than 6 hours of sleeping! Then mom came home with lunch! Then it was off to the track. There's competition today, and obviously I didn't win! haha!
Now, I'm sleepy again! Need to apply for DMAT tmr!
YEAH!
Voiced at 11:16 PM on 08 February 2009
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I know I know, it seems as if I only find God only when I feel down or confused or wrong.
No!
Today God, I realised there are still people in my life that I can still treasure. Thank God, I also realised that I'm not like some no-life scums out there.
Thank God, I didn't took drugs and became a junkie.
Thank God, I'd STOPPED DRINKING!! YES!! STOP!!
Thank God, for all the littlest things in life, be it the punches or the hugs or the jokes or the cries, or the laughs or the friends that have gone their way, or the friends that are still here. I thank you God and Friends =)
Voiced at 12:59 AM on 07 February 2009
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Today I woke up pretty early even though there was no school. I didn't had breakfast! Then I had shower and got ready to meet dear friend Tini. I was late because I thought she would be late(she told me) so I thought I'd go out late too, then we can reach at the same time, but NO! I was late. Okay! We went to KFC after what it seems like a long time I have been there. Zinger never tasted so nice before because it was FREE! Yes, we argued about who was to pay, and if one of us didn't took that money, we won't stop arguing. So ya! Thanks Tini! We talked more than we ate.
Then we decided to give Nabeel a call, and met up at the block nearby. Then it was time for me to go. So Tini tag along because she was going to meet another friend of hers. I passed her presents to her. Sorry it wasnt anything much. =)
Then it was me and Mr Bike! All the way up till 6! Then met up them mates to have a little chat about Tomorrow!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY AGAIN TINI!
Voiced at 11:59 PM on 06 February 2009
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There's a thin line in between these two. Yes I see you guys are proud of where you come from. However dissing others isn't the way to prove the point. If you really hate a crowd, tell them to the face. Why through a blog or any source of internet. That's what cunts do! Yes, I'm talking about kids who blog about us, Forum Bootboys, Bad move! seriously. Just because you don't fucking dare to talk to us to our faces, doesn't mean you can do it through the net because we don't fucking like it, who does? Do you? Do you like it when I tell you that the people you are running with a scums? No rite? So why the dissing! Fine! You can cut all the gigs from us, you can cut it all! You see, pride can make people do stupid things!
We, the new generation of Forum Bootboys aren't dumb nor are we naive. You can push us around but guess, they did, I stood right back up because I don't believe in staying down for too long! _|_ _|_
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Happy Birthday to Dear Friend Nurfatini Binte HER DAD! Getting a birthday cake at midnight is so coool! =) Yes, all the memories! Its a HAPPY BIRTHDAY afterall rite?!
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I feel so guilt ridden. I really do. Only Wani know's why. =(
I wish I was rich for once. Omg! I starved myself at school from monday to have money well I guess I'm not good enough, no wonder I don't have a girlfriend, I can't even tend to myself! =(
Voiced at 11:39 PM on 05 February 2009
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People don't appreciate us like we appreciate them, so why should we appreciate them like the way we want them to appreciate us? Yes, push me aside because I know where I stand, where I can make my own move in life, where my decisions are only for me and only me. Yes my friends, selfishness, now they don't think about that when they push us aside. They don't stop and think, "hey, I need them." Then comes the time when they need a shoulder, or a helping hand, or a listening ear, THEN they will come to you, plead their misery as though we can make it go away, and when we said "No" they go on blabbering about their sacrifice for us. SACRIFICE? more like SELFFISHNESS to me. I mean, yes I know you have us in your best interest, and I know people are somehow busy with stuffs of their own. Hey, time is not that hard to be spent with a "Hello" or maybe a day out to the nearest fast-food place. I mean, yes, old friends new friends, they are everywhere. So why the hell are they still loners?
Omg!
I'm going on and on because I've nothing to talk about but loneliness. =( yeah, go on.
Voiced at 1:42 AM on 03 February 2009
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Days are getting weird each time it passes me. Firstly I feel lazier and lazier to get up from school. Then, I feel all so good about my all kembang hair. Weird kan? I should be bald by now! HAHA! I need a haircut, but how?
Okay! 15th Feb is the date to wait for! and also 22nd! for somebody *ehem ehem*
OKAYOKAY! I'm tired! so lets go!
Voiced at 12:50 AM on