For those who knows.

STORIES
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I am okay.

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Don't worry, I have survived a thousand falls before, what makes you think I won't survive this time. Its not the love that I am longing for, its the time and company that we humans are a so used to having. I long for that and I know you wouldn't be the same even for the moment we saw each other, the past seemed to have hunt and killed that feeling between us, girl. I know, because I felt it way way too much. If its indifference thats breaking us apart, I wouldn't have put the slightest hope on you. Thats why I thought for a moment, I was blessed. I will survive this fall.

Voiced at 5:47 PM on 29 August 2009

Damn you Mkom.

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I know this is weird, but the I just got fined for modified exhaust, its weird when you get caught for things that you didn't do, I didn't do this, my brother did! So the thing is Mkom, I'll curse you for hailing me down that fateful day, I curse you that you wouldn't be celebrating Raya this year, you are such a pain in the arse Mkom. You can go around doing what you people do best, catching people with not much illegal modifications.

How about the matreps and mat mat designs, asal dorang tak kene? Ape malam dapat pe kalau tak tangkap dorang, come on please, you guys are bullshit you have alot of other people to spot and you spot this kid with a P-plate riding to school! You guys are plain bullshit, you guys don't make the road safe, what can a modified exhaust do to the road compared 'sotong' tyres and racing modified bikes, come on, my bike wasn't modified for racing, you guys are crap! If I were to race, I would buy myself a racing suit and head for the track. You guys waste my time and effort to change back to the stock exhaust and still charge me $500, so what am I going to eat? Sand? The bike already gave me problems and its all because of you and then you still have the cheek to charge $500. I'm vexed, really I am.

Voiced at 3:16 PM on 25 August 2009

Is is or is it not.

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Maybe all these while, someone really stood by me, not physical but through these emotional storm that's brewing. Maybe she has been there and done that, to say what happens next, what to do and what to not do. Someone who keeps pushing me before I fall, and eventually will fall but slowly. She helps me ease the pain, so much to that, we will share it. Like talk things out. Sometimes I thought to myself why did we not contact for the whole year of last year. Why? Maybe I was dumbstruck. Whatever the reasons were, it did not last, she's an overall a great person to be with. Someone who doesn't bother to give up friendship for a relationship that she know has a low probability of lasting. She know who she is, when she read this, she knows, or maybe she's that belo~ haha~

Voiced at 12:53 AM on 11 August 2009

Not much of a great weekend.

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Went for Sheesha with mates and we kinda left early. That to me thats not the main part. The bike just made a decision to bail on me again! Seriously I was about to send it for service today but I already PUSHED it into m'sia yesterday night, thanks to Dan. It was an adventure. So won't be seeing baby M in a while, cause I need some funds to back up for all the repairs, and maybe a new paintwork, then again, maybe not.

Voiced at 11:07 AM on 10 August 2009

Long Long holiday

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4 days of rest and enjoy and fun had started yesterday!
Went to neighbour's bbq pit, East Coast Park sucks ah, seriously, the parking lots and the pits, are so far apart! Then off to watch G.I Joe! Cool movie, a MUST WATCH! I have much much more plans ahead, oh ya, I've decided not to catch any fireworks this year because, it kinda reminded me of something of last year. Hmmm and also I'm not proud to be a Singaporean, to be honest, because I've learnt about the true Singapore, the bullshit that have been with this country! Tomorrow, meeting them mates, for Sheesha and also before that, have to head to Local bike shop.
Sunday, is total busy day, got a wedding and also some 'kenduri', then maybe head to Forum, if I'm free. Monday, is long awaited, a visit to the best bike shop in the world! Haha! Need to get somethings done on the bike and also put that ZZZ on my M! I mean our M.

Oh yeah, I'm missing someone, but I can't decide who I missed most! =(

I still have that temptation to get that full face helmet, just that, it wouldn't go right on with my bike~ haha!

Voiced at 2:29 AM on 08 August 2009

Wouldn't it be nice?

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Suddenly, I feel all messed up.

Besides waking up all cranky and mad, for two days in a row, I've not been having good sunshiny days lately. Maybe this weekend outing with them mates shall do the trick. How would I know that things are not going to be my way this week. Its a totally shit week, to me. My guesses are they are more to come, just hope that Ramadhan this year is going to be way better than last year~

Now besides the long bus-rides home, the long hours in school are also keeping me away from spending time at home as much and I'm supposed to continue this for another 2 years plus, darn! I need to get some transport in, I was thinking of any normal bike, because this current bike that we are sharing seems to attract too much attention! =(

Voiced at 9:32 PM on 05 August 2009

This is my country! Err no! This is HIS country~

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Come on, everybody knows that Singapore is not a democratic country! Darn rite it doesn't. I wish to move some place elsewhere. I guess maybe Malaysia! Err no, no, worse! Haha!

Its been a long long time since we've really got a plan rite? I mean, next Monday is really looked forward to. I'm so not going for fireworks! It will be a busy day, but well paid of course! So yes! Monday is going to be a happy happy day I hope! =)

Voiced at 11:40 PM on 03 August 2009

Weekend Kaboom!

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So Sunday, I couldn't make it for Rhaimy's gig because we ended late but I didn't miss a chance to go to Hard Rock and party! Met up with them mates at Forum and we made our way to HRC. I can bet with you, that almost all the people there were drinking but I managed to NOT DRINK, because I remembered people telling me not to, and also I was riding, don't want to end up at the wrong side of the law. The vibe and atmosphere there was great, besides not having alot of mats and minahs, we have abang-abangs and kakak-kakaks which was more of a better replacement. The songs were great, the crowd! Chicks were hot too, but mostly taken, but c'mon, in clubs, its so hard to be protective of your girl, when she's all drunk and wild you know! So it ended at 3! and I reach home at 3.20. Fast eh? HAHA! The road was damn empty I tell you.

Voiced at 4:56 PM on

Saturday Saturday Saturday.

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What else you gonna do on a Saturday?

I'm going out! Gathering today with the folks from last November's DJ course, after almost a year of not meeting up, finally. We are going to a karaoke session I guess. Can't wait. Yesterday spent an hour or so alone. Plug in to my mp3 and went off for a ride. Sort of a reflection kinda ride, alone mah. Ended up in the west end of Singapore! Then headed to Forum, from which headed home without entering the Expressway, cool huh! Then got a call from Nabeel! Going out with Sharul and Ruzaini, again another ride to Changi where had some drinks and slack till 2. Which was kinda boring, going out with 4-strokes folks. HAHA! Then it was home time, but when I got home! The family already went to Changi to have supper. I wanted to join though but I guess I need to keep up to the vow of 2 meals per day only. So far this week had been a success!

Tomorrow's gonna be a long long day. Got a wedding to attend and maybe to Rhaimy's gig, then off to Hard Rock Cafe, with who? Alone I guess but I did drop Syed a message to put me on the guestlist *ni bukan world okay! ni betol betol*. So ya, just in case. Anyway, I tried to get people to join, but everybody has school on the Monday. I'm starting late, so its fine to me.

Voiced at 11:22 AM on 01 August 2009