Now I know why I missed you. Because with you by my side, I could be myself and let my problems go, just like the first time we met. Seeing you yesterday really lit up some good memories and yes. I know its not the same anymore, it can never be, will it? However I am still just as happy to see you and your smile at gigs. Hmm. Maybe that's that huh? I still have your favourite song stuck in my head, and never going out. I'm still just as happy as I was to see you all happy and moving on in life, and yes, I'm moving on. This is just a little remembrance for you, dear friend. 6 more days and you're 18 =)
Voiced at 5:48 PM on 31 January 2009
You crossed the line.
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Yesterday was the first gig of the year, the first fight of the year too. People who can't take shit in the moshpit.Cunts! We will get you someday okay, don't worry.
Voiced at 5:09 PM on
Hot hot day!
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Today was a family day by the beach! Spent 2 hours in the water, it felt great, got sunburned! haha! After that, we went cycling from Changi Beach to EAST COAST BEACH! Long way eh! Now, I'm entertaining myself with wrestling vids! Today was really really great, surprisingly I don't feel that tired! Okay! I'm out of words now! haha!
Voiced at 2:22 AM on 28 January 2009
Welcome to my paradise!
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"The more you care for her, the more she wants to forget you"
=D
2 days of carrying stuffs! I helped my uncle move house and yes, I didn't enjoyed it, but hey, I need to do something you know! Saturday went to meet them mates and yes! Everyone was all happy I guess. Can't wait for this Friday's gig! =D Then after that, brother and friends picked me up and we went to have supper, which was more like dinner+tmr's breakfast! okay! Then sunday was another day of moving stuffs only that we didn't move as much, did alot of unpacking! okay enough of that! Today is really really boring I know! okay maybe it will rise up this afternoon!
Voiced at 10:43 AM on 26 January 2009
Why did it even start?
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Today was really funny day with them classmates! =) I'm too lazy to type down what happened.
2 days straight without going online! I can't be bothered you know! Its seems like there's not much people to talk to online. If there is, there wouldn't much things to talk about. Even friendster, tagged and facebook is getting bored. So yes! What have I been doing all this while? I went out! Alone, at least I don't have a bitch girlfriend okay? OKAY? Seriously, thank god! Tonight, I'm meeting up with Rul and Faris and a couple of guys to jam on Faris side band, its been awhile since I played the drums! HAHA! I'll try, besides, its not like they are that good right? =P The gig's is next week and Delirium is jamming tomorrow and this time! I'm not bringing any girl with me, not this time round. HAHA! Because the last time I did, it ended up in what? DISASTER! So no more of this shit. Oh ya! Saturday going karaoke with them mates! YEAH!!
Voiced at 6:58 PM on 22 January 2009
WISH!
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Today I woke up late, thus making my aunties wait for me. We went to pay Ais a visit at Queenstown. I was really really happy to see him, and felt better when I saw him all normal and happy. I missed him alot. I told him about our gig at Melaka. By the look of his eyes, I knew he was proud. He kept asking about his girlfriend. My auntie's last words was "mama love you", it was sad when it ended, I teared for awhile. But hey, its not like he's off to a death sentence right? I'll be there when you come out man.
Okay, put sadness aside. My family just got a new fucking car!! A toyota wish! Tompang gembira je. Then we went to have lunch and it was home. Now I'm so excited to complete my fucking class 3! YAY!
Voiced at 4:44 PM on 17 January 2009
What now?
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I've gone through shit like YOU! so what now? I get left all alone?
There you go.
Today, had only an hour of school, practical test and we nailed it. Then I went to have lunch with classmates. Really bored. Then I had 3 hours of sleep. eh, no, 4 hours! Then I waste my night away on speed and stability! HAHA!
Life has been really blunt lately. I rarely have much fun outside except for school and 'night-activities'. I just realised that I really changed alot. REALLY. So I'm going to write a song! =)
Voiced at 11:28 PM on 13 January 2009
My My.
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Life's been straight and bumpy at the same time. I just realised my money finishes so fast even before I ate my dinner. I'm just too much of a big spender. Hey! Everyone needs money don't they!?
Today my internet was down for hours and I went to skate. Yes. Hurt the knees again. AND AGAIN! I can't be bothered anymore! I'd rather break my knees than my heart. Seriously.
School's have been really really okay. Not bad. I'm still hoping for a place for DMAT. Please God, a chance is all it takes. My dreams have been half broken last year. Please, not this year.
Voiced at 12:03 AM on
You don't understand.
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Today I really feel so down. I can't be bothered to even shave my bloody moustache! I feel like the whole world just stop and leave me to walk by myself.
I know, I've been giving stupid reasons not to tag along with you guys but I need time guys. I need to satisfy my needs. I know you guys are having the time of your lives out there on the streets. Drinking and getting drunk!
Its me I'm talking about. I wanna be new. This year. I had too much shit on me last year. TOO MUCH. I wanna change and also make changes. I'm sorry if I've like chuck you guys one side and move on. I'm sorry, I've reached my station and I'm alighting from this train. You guys go ahead. Sooner or later I'll meet you guys again.
Voiced at 1:04 AM on 11 January 2009
Kool shit.
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Today was really really tiring, I had a 3 hour nap before going to prac 6 and failing~ Then I went to meet brother at the track. My car was creating alot of problems and the policeman was really not helping when they asked to close the track. Fuck the people who complain man, we trying to have some fun here! Today I realised that I haven't been taking much pictures since the new year. In fact, I haven't even uploaded any into my friendster, tagged or facebook. I can't be bother anymore. In fact my hair is on the process of growing and believe me I hate it when it is growing. KEMBANGG!!!
So yes! Tomorrow is going to be track day again. Maybe I'll go for a jog alone, dah lama tak jog. Ouh ya!
Voiced at 12:40 AM on 10 January 2009
We are UP and always on top okay~
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Yes, it may seem like Delirium is all quiet and not doing any progress. However we are still up there, never coming down, not sooner or later. We've got a gig on the 30th! Hmmm, we need to prepare for the Melaka gig as well. Oh well, lots of work to do. Enough about the band.
Me, today, track was close, so I visited my dearest nieces. HAHA! Sweet and all grown up. At least they can start talking. Gonna be there for them until they can manage on their own. Well, they do have alot of other aunties and uncles too! Golden kids, I might call them.
nothing much to blog anyway. BTW! Siti is really really nice to post something about me in her blog~ =)
Voiced at 10:48 PM on 08 January 2009
New song.
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I've been really really bored, so this is another song I made. I know its not that nice, but this is what I enjoy doing. Noone can stop me. =) If you don't like it, you can go away.
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i don't believe in forever nor do i believe in whatever you say i don't try to be a lover nor do I want to be a loser you see
and all the things that you've done are wasting away yes going away your words and all your laughter have kept me awake yes im awake
what would you do if your days were numbered by the months and the days do you still stand by the ones you love now or would you just stray away And then you know that you are fading and this is not a dream, ouh no its not a dream and you decide to go unholy against the fate that you are dead
and all the things that you do are wasting away yes going away your words and all your laughter have kept me awake yes im awake to me there is no other use for me to wait, no I can't wait i realised that you gone you went away, you went away..
Voiced at 2:20 PM on 06 January 2009
Let the past be the past, mom.
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Mom have been really on my nerves lately. She kept reminding me of all the mistakes in the past. Everything. And each time I hear them, I just don't wanna hear anymore. Dad's been giving me the leeway lately, but I won't take it for granted. Mom, maybe cared too much? Oh well, I love her alot.
2009 really didn't hit me as hard just yet. Oh ya! I forgot. I miss Ais alot.
Voiced at 12:38 AM on
SchoolSchool!
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Aww man, school's starting sooon. Not that I hate it, just that, the teachers are so damn boring man. I heard we also got a test coming and guess what, I can't remember what we even learnt 4 weeks ago! HAHA!
So yes. This one's for you. I am up and going. Not turning back. Not being a be-there-for-you-forever person anymore because you showed me a sign. A sign telling me to go away and don't bother. Yes! that's what I will do. I can't be my oldself, waiting for you, mistaking all the fucking signs. Yes. You are a bitch. A bitch is not what I looking for in my heart. Sorry.
The New Year can't get any better than this I guess!
Voiced at 12:11 AM on 05 January 2009
Done done done with the fucking around~
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Currently listening to: Black Cadillacs - Modest Mouse.
Damn, was supposed to get my PDL done today, then I guess I was too lazy to do so. So today mom and me was thinking up ways and phrases to ask money from grandpa for a new bike, damn, we were just laughing all the way. She said that it was ridiculuous to get a cent from him. However I don't think its impossible. HAHA! However I couldn't make myself do it.
Today, the whole family is planning an outing to the beach, gonna meet up with all my nieces! HAHA! I'm still thinking of a new bloglayout but I don't seem to get any ideas up in my head. It's really been awhile since I did any progress with Friendster. Getting lazy here! Still waiting for library date with Lyra. -_-'
Voiced at 4:19 PM on 04 January 2009
Its new!
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Hey! 2009! Today spent the night with Bare Knuckle and the rest of the hardcore kids. I tell you, the are true hardcore kids, really. I swear man. Okay! So I had etrial test today and will be having another one tmr morning on the day itself! RTT! I need to nail it. And yes! I heard that 1991 babies need to wait for another 3 years to take up their license. Its what I heard not confirmed I think, or isit? Pity you guys. So, today I smiled to myself and said, "2009, its gonna be one hell of a year, I'll find someone to be with and find more friends, and do alot of stuffs this year."
Yeah. Great year I hope. Amin.
Voiced at 11:55 PM on 02 January 2009
NEW YEAR!
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OMG! 2008 ended well with them mates down at Marina! 2009 started all stupid. Okay maybe some moments of it! Spent the early moments of 2009 down by East Coast Chalet with Forum Bootboys! Me and Nabeel was really trying our best to forget what happened way back in 2008!
So here, 2009! Not so surprising as I thought. I'll try my best to welcome it with all the best wishes. Yes, once again I wanna say sorry to Hana, for really not keeping that 'promise' that I told her, I'm a born promise-breaker. HAHA!
Here's a vid for you readers!HAHA! This is total fucking crap!