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I've got this feeling of hatred that I can't put away. A hatred that I had for years. I seriously can't bother to be nice and sweet anymore because people are stepping on my head to get to where they wanna go. I hate to give way to people who don't deserve my kindness. I think there's not much reason for me to go out and search for what you people call love anymore because Peah said, I'm too young! Well I guess I am. So I think I'll just go with whatever God has planned for me. No objections.
However, I will never be the same anymore. I'm changing! Go tell the whole world. I'm burning off my fatty fats off my fat body! Yes, all it needs is patience and more exercise and a diet! WAH! yat diet seh. I know its strange but hey I don't want to be that fat kid down the block. I'm not looking to score chicks or a cheap fuck, because that's so common. I have an agenda, a more larger scale agenda. Its not a secret but those who know me, might know this agenda. This plan that I have waited all year long. A plan that nobody can stop me. Nope! Not even my bestfriend. That's not the point. The point is, nobody is going to know. HELL YEAH!
Voiced at 12:00 AM on 29 October 2008
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Possesions never meant anything to me
I'm not crazy
Well that's not true, I've got a bed, and a guitar
And a dog named Bob who pisses on my floor
That's right, I've got a floor
So what, so what, so what?
I've got pockets full of kleenex and lint and holes
Where everything important to me
Just seems to fall right down my leg
And on to the floor
My closest friend linoleum
Linoleum
Supports my head, gives me something to believe
That's me on the beachside combing the sand
Metal meter in my hand
Sporting a pocket full of change
That's me on the street with a violin under my chin
Playing with a grin, singing gibberish
That's me on the back of the bus
That's me in the cell
That's me inside your head
That's me inside your head
That's me inside your head
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the lyrics kinda have no meaning I think, but hey, thats PUNK ROCK isn't it?
Voiced at 11:22 PM on 28 October 2008
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I am so not looking forward to life right now. I feel dumb, really. The gig is just a week away and everybody seems to take it lightly. Now, thats what I hate about having a band, they don't seem to take it seriously but I mention this to them, they told me to relax. Okay, rellllaaaxxxx. Look who's talking. You guys are not driving much of the shit here. HELLLLOOOOO! I have alot to finish. The band tees. I think from now on, I won't make band tees anymore, seems like a hassle.
So, once again, I'd made her mad at me. Doing things and asking things without thinking. Yeah, I'm a jerk, I know. I so have lost the mood for this whole week. Oh well, people tell not to think too much, bla bla bla bla. Well, that's easy for you to say. Look what you have that I don't, loook carefully. Its always easier said than done. ALWAYS!
I don't feel any sense of belonging anywhere right now. Only at home, but that also depends on who's at home. I myself, miss the old times. Every single old times that we had. hmmmm. ='(
Voiced at 9:53 AM on
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have you met that special person?
That person that makes you forget everything, because you're too distracted by their smile. That person you can never stop thinking about even if you want to. That person that makes a perfect moment even better. That person that you think about on a sleepless night and then wake up with that same person in your head the next day. That person whose name you write on everything you own. That person who gives you something in your life to look forward everyday. That person that makes you believe perfection might actually be possible, because there's nothing about them that you would ever want to change. That person who makes you feel like the luckiest person alive.
something from the heart.
Voiced at 11:01 PM on 26 October 2008
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Today was a day out with best friend Astuty. It was really a long time ago since we caught up on good times. So, I met her at around 3.30 and we headed to cityhall to have a meal at Magic Wok which was also what I had yesterday with Zuhair and Fehrin. So after the meal. She treated me Fried Mars Bars, YES, her treat! Then we made our way to esplanade and finish up what we bought. Then we went to look for her sneakers at Penin but to no avail. Our last stop was at citylink mall where she bought her slippers. Then off to home!! Tomorrow is Deepavali! HAPPY DEEPAVALI EVERYBODY! YAY!
Voiced at 8:56 PM on
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Today was a day out with my family and friends. Went to Little India this morning for breakfast/lunch. Then took a walk at sim lim square. Then in the afternoon, met Zuhair and Fehrin and went to Orchard then Cityhall. We counted the number of people who wore 'topi tenggek' and there was 61 of them! 10 was at orcchard and the rest around cityhall!
Then met Lam, Wani and Jana. I wasn't in the mood for anything. My mind was racing. Thinking about alot of things. I'm having a distorted mindset. I know I'm a nobody but why do people seemed to ignore me? I mean, I'd try my best to... ARGH! Forget it. You won't understand it anyway =(
UP YOURS WANKERS, WEARERS, SCENE-ERS! WHATEVER CRAP! JUST FUCK OFF!
Voiced at 2:07 AM on
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Why is it like this since last time? I'm so confused, bleargh!
I'm having a headache, maybe because spending time in the rain. That's not the point. I hate liars. Someone who is really really hiding something from me. Why? What have I done wrong? ='(
There's someone I wanna kill....
Voiced at 8:47 PM on 23 October 2008
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Ais
I remember when I was a kid. Still growing up. Still needed time to understand stuffs. You were there for me. Every single time I fell down, you help me up, not entirely but surely. The days when we spend time doing what other kids were doing. You, me and my brother. You were like my own brother too. Never did you vanished in my thoughts. Days past and I still remembered the day you made it to the top-10 of the Singapore Skateboarding X-games. I was so proud! I looked up to you! Then as soon as things were on top, it just had to fall right?
I hated your dad, because he was being selfish to you. He just had to stop whatever that you were doing. He didn't fucking understand what kids like us had to went through, and I could see you are failing in life. 2003 I saw you following my brother's footsteps. You shaved your head but you were in the wrong crowd, not entirely wrong. Just that you were really lost. I too did follow, but brother pulled me back and reminded me that it isn't time yet. You went on with all the glory that you could fight for. Soon, you fell. Pills and pins got you hard. You were a fucking junkie, and hell I hated you. I hated to see you all thin and bony. Still I kept faith. Years passed and I didn't bother much anymore.
2008. Shining bright like a star. It was our first gig and you were there. Fucking proud to see you singing along. Especially when I know that you are going off soon enough. I was happy enough to even see your girlfriend outside, I felt related to her. You still kept junk-ing your way through life. I even had a thought to beat you up but no, we went through too much. I respected you like my own brother only that I couldn't look up to you anymore. Not a junkie!
The last sight of you. The last brotherly hug was almost a few weeks back, on the first day of Raya before you had to go. I knew there are some words I wanna say to you, but I can't bring myself to. You didn't cry but I can feel the sadness. I could feel how painful it is to leave. All I wanna say is that, I'll see you soon because its what are about. We are brothers. I'm proud to roll with you through the good times.
When you get out, we will enjoy like how we used to. See you real soon my cousin. Keep the fucking faith.
To all of you, who didn't feel a pinch of this post, please fuck off. This is my life. My faith. My pride. Up yours to all the fucking junkies who ruined our society! FUCK YOU ALL!
Voiced at 10:24 PM on 22 October 2008
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Today after mahgrib I was moved by the urge of getting fit! So I decided to have a 2-round of street 22 jog. Sound short to you, but it's really been a while since I last jogged! So all I need is consistency and everything will turn out good I guess. The gig is a few weeks away and NO! we haven't had a full band session just yet. *GASP!* Soon, I guess. So okay, I'm still in love with you girl. OOOPS! wrong channel!
Voiced at 12:10 AM on
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SCORPIO MAN
A man with a foggy clouds over him. He is sensitive and easily hurt and
always feels lonely. He does not trust anyone but himself. Sounding so
negative, but he has an amazingly charisma. He is a compassionate man . He
absorbs other people sentimental feeling and pain.
He is a good psychiatrist and he could understand complex and confused
feeling. He has a hidden power that he could use it to make things happen
and do things well. He does not like people who never try to help themselves
before asking other people for favors. He is the type of guy who mostly
achieved his
goal in life.Once he sets his mind for something, he will put
all his energy and efforts in it , whether or not it is a small matter or a
big project. One of the most success man in all the Zodiac.
He is a very patient man and can waits for years to reach his goal. He hates
thin feeling and weak determinations. He can not retreat or rest for long,
for he thinks life has more questions and more answer to be searched.
If he is in love, you will get plenty of love from him, sometimes may be too
much than you have asked for. He is serious about love and relationship and
will not waste time with someone he does not love whether how pretty she is.
He hardly makes mistake. He could tell if you have any bad thought, and will
not hesitate to tell you so. If you do not like straight forward sincere
man, then pack your bag now. If you are an over
sensitive person, try not to
ask for his comments. He will tell you the truth, even you might not be able
to take it. Example , if you ask him if you are fat (and you are fat), he
will say 'yes, as big as a balloon'. He makes such comments because he cares
for you, so do something about your weight and do not get up set with him.
If he says 'you look pretty today', you can be proud because he will not say
such think just to please you if he does not really mean it. There will be
both kind of people, those who like him and those who hate him. If you are
in love this guy, be strong and belief in your decision, do not be
vulnerable. He remembers all his anger and will wait for his pay back time.
He is very serious about your promise, do not promise something you could
not keep. He loves his friends and will do anything for his close friends.
He likes you to take care of him, but not in front of his friend. He is a
complex man and you will never understand what he means if you do not really
know him. He is happy to know he is a complex figure. When he is thinking or
when he needs his privacy, you should give him some space.
He memorize everything well. You may say something that you already
forgotten, but he will remember every words. He wants to be respected and
admired and at the same time he does not like people to have power over him.
When he falls in love, he really falls deep. A man in this Zodiac once in
love, he will be sweeter than sugar. He does not like a plain and simple
woman. A complex woman's mind is his venture. Always be interesting and able
to talk to him about every things in any subjects. He does not like a woman
who sits around waiting for his
call.
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sometimes when you read these kind of things, your mind tend to relate as much as possible, but come to think of it, to me, this is certainly true ;) But still I trust God the most =)
Voiced at 7:45 PM on 21 October 2008
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Today I was really got everything planned up since I was in bed at 8 in the morning. I wanted to cut my hair. I mean, trimmed it but ooops! Human makes mistakes right? So I decided to let it all go~ and now I'm bald!
Voiced at 9:09 AM on
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Okay, I don't know what to feel, how to express my feelings anymore. I feel hurt, yet I'm fine. I feel happy yet I'm sad. Everything keeps mixing up and I don't know who to blame. I don't know when I'll be okay or maybe I'm not gonna be okay at all! Fuck! FUCK! FUCK! I feel so ignored yet cared for. I feel useless yet I still help people! What is this? WHAT THE FUCK IS THIS!!
Voiced at 11:06 PM on 20 October 2008
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Today was really unplanned for. Decided to meet Tini up today. We had Mcdonalds and it was FREE for Tini! haha! Then walked around looking for shoes for her and also headphones for me. Saw Astuty too! So ya! Walked again and Tini started smacking me on the arms and Oh! punches too. In the end like always we parted and she gave me what she owed! So, I headed home too, not home exactly but met Fehrin at kampong.
Oh ya! I'd lost the touch of using FL studio since nowadays I only use it for recording but no more than that. So ya, I'm starting to get the hang of it once more. Anybody up for some techno? haha!
Voiced at 7:17 PM on
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Gosh, I'm trying hard lately not to speak from my heart but my brains. =) And so far so good. Just needed more time to spend alone or with a friend to talk to. So today I skipped school (aiyo!). Was lazy you see. Really lazy. I met Fehrin and then so Sarip and wanted to go to McD when we saw Shaiful who also tagged along. Had breakfast and when to withdraw my money and went home and had a long long nap. Okay, so I called DavisGuitars up to ask how much was the EMGs 81/85 ZW set. It was $290 including installation!! Damn, now I know why people work =( And remember the job interview? I got it, but my mommy was skeptical. Like really skeptical, so I quit the job -_-'
Voiced at 12:15 PM on
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So ya! Today met Nabeel and went to Peninsular to check out the guitar hardcases. So was really deciding quickly and got the RECTANGULAR one! Put my guitar in and off we went to LJS to eat and got back in a jiffy. So Nabeel was having some problems with this girl. Basically he just had the wrong feeling for the girl when the girl just wants to be friends. Scroll down and this is really really familiar! So I told him, just be there for her as a friend because that is better for both of them.
Voiced at 7:34 PM on 19 October 2008
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Its Sunday already =(
Why does time move so fast when you want it to go slowly, and it goes slowly when you want it to go fast. Weird as it sounds. So today was suppose to meet with old friend Astuty, been months since i met her but she's not messaging yet, maybe she's busy or something. So I guess I'm staying. Thought of getting the guys to finish up the recording of the guitars. Since everybody's busy so won't bother. I guess will be going out soon to I don't know where. Maybe get something that I wanted for so long!! Weeeeee! I don't know maybe I'll just go to Penin and get that guitar case that I wanted for so long. hmmmm. Or maybe to Swee Lee!! Weee!
Voiced at 12:14 PM on
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It seems like there's way too much things that I need to buy and the worse part is, all that I want, I will include it in my need list and I will go all bonkers! There's alot to pay. The December chalet with the old pals! The tees. I had to pay them first before the people who wants them pay. So ya! I need a guitar case and want a headphone! MY GOD!!!!
Voiced at 10:45 PM on 18 October 2008
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This year had witness my greatest changed so far. Some of the old friends will know but some will just don't care. I mean, what kind of friends leaves you stranded alone. What kind? I'm in a mess so far so I guess I'll have to do the cleaning up myself.
Firstly, I need to stop doing what I do worst. Love. I'd realised there's not much to it.
Secondly, I need to start exercising and stop eating double meals. YEAH! laugh all you want. Someday I'll show you.
Thirdly, I'm not gonna waste my time waiting for people anymore. I'd rather be the late comer than the guy who came first and has wait for the others.
Fouthly, I'm looking forward to NOVEMBER BABBBYY!
Lastly, I'll do what Peah had suggested. To have a heart of stone.
Voiced at 11:06 AM on
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As soon as I posted the previous post, Mahdi agreed to get off his arse to do some recording and we did fine tonight! The drums were much better maybe mainly the system was better. OH! and have you seen my new layout, I mean just changed the colour scheme! Much more cooler. Something nicer to look at.
Voiced at 11:48 PM on 17 October 2008
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Today was okay, we tried out the new jamming place way behind ITE Tampines. It was really surprisingly great. The place from outside seems like it was in a wreck, but the inside was WOAH! haha! Slacked with them guys for awhile. Went back to kampong and slack more. Guess what, its friday night and I'm at home. I wanted to head back to that place that we went this afternoon. The mixer was really really attracting! HAHA! serious! Something you would really really need for a small time new upcoming band doing self recording! Guess what, Mahdi was not free -_-. hmmm. Maybe soon we'll finish up them recordings. 2 more weeks or so to the gig and we haven't had some serious jamming!
Voiced at 7:16 PM on
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This might be a really a disturbing post for some of you.
I really wonder what people were really thinking when they are having sex. Especially when you are not married. Because yesterday I saw it myself back in the chalet. The girl came with her bf, but while her bf was picking fights with everybody she was busy asking people to help, but when she saw that he had gone home which he didn't, she went in a room with another guy. So you do the maths?
I don't know why, but yeah, everyone has that 'nafsu' you know, even me. Okay I admit about this kind of stuffs but hey that's the past and ya, I admit of not knowing what I was doing. How about her? She was willing you know. However how about those who were not willing but because they love that someone, they had gone to the extend to do it with them. I mean, is it really really love, or just lust? This really got me wondering.
So if those who felt offended, I'm really sorry but this is just me, really curious. By the way, I still believe that everyone has a past that they want to forget and we as friends, must help them in anyway we can. Because that is what friends are for, and sometimes SOMETIMES friends are much much better than lovers. =)
Voiced at 12:13 AM on
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Yesterday, Emmy(my cousin) was doing a party with 3 other guys, celebrating their birthday and yeah. The whole chalet they put blue lights and some more club stuffs, there were smoke machines too. The whole place looks like a club, but! nobody was dancing, everybody was either drunk or eating. I'd entertain the guys and girls with a guitar, by the BBQ pit. They told me to play 'I'm yours' for 6 times!! Like fuck rite? ahaha. But amidst the party there was tension, there's this drunk guy one of my cousin's friend, was really picking a fight with everybody there. like all the kids who were enjoying the party. But everytime he picks a fight he runs down the hill (the chalet was at Fairy Point Changi, and was ontop of the hill). Then a few hours, he came back and pick up a fight with the chinese guys, and he punched 4 guys! Then he run again. like fuck! Then after that, the last time he came, Emmy was holding him back, and the mistake he made was, he pushed Emmy to the ground! I was like, shit dude, its time to use the knuckle duster! HAHA! I wanted to punch him, but he ran again, So me and Rick and Fandi, emmy's siblings, chase him ah. But when we almost got to him, he was really far away. His sister who came from nowhere, hold us back apologizing and asking us whats wrong. I was lazy to talk, I just told her, when I see him again. I'll do what I love to do ;P So ya, this guy, coincidently is in my school and he lives in pasir ris.
Voiced at 11:40 AM on 16 October 2008
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The gig is coming people! Delirium's 3rd gig.
its down at Kampong Melayu at Geylang. Going to be great! I hope! Must start practising already~ Oi! Oi!
Voiced at 11:53 AM on 15 October 2008
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I have decided to leave this blog to rot along with all the post. All post breaks heart. So I guess I don't wanna post anymore about my feelings, let it rot in my heart like its meant to be. Let me rot in hell together with all my sins. I apologize for those I've hurt because I'm loser that what dad used to call me. I'm sorry if all this doesn't make sense to you.
Voiced at 10:36 AM on
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I know I'm not needed anymore because it was my mistakes that made you feel this way and my mistakes also made me feel this way. For once, you seemed quiet and not been talking, and I feel guilty but if that's what you want me to feel then congratulations to you. Not having the mood to talk is different then not wanting to talk. Then again, maybe you won't need my companion anymore right? =')
Voiced at 9:20 AM on
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If it just won't sing for you
'Cause all that's left has gone away
And there's nothing there for you to prove
Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
Oh well, it seems like such fun
Until you lose what you had won
Give me back my point of view
'Cause I just can't think for you
I can hardly hear you say
What should I do, well you choose
Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
Oh well, it seems like such fun
Until you lose what you had won
Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
A fool of everyone
A fool of everyone
Take my photo off the wall
If it just won't sing for you
'Cause all that's left has gone away
And there's nothing there for you to do
Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
Oh well, it seems like such fun
Until you lose what you had won
Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
A fool of everyone
A fool of everyone
Voiced at 9:14 AM on
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4 times i got my heart-broken and now, I'll pick it all up once again, and cement it up. Make it strong and hard. Very hard~
Voiced at 11:36 PM on 14 October 2008
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I would like to extend my greatest gratitude to a friend whom I've never met before but have shed some light into my dark life. Thank you for telling me~
Voiced at 11:08 PM on
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Would there be a day when everything will be all sunshine and rainbows! When it would be the day, you forgot all your problems. When its the best day of your life! I don't think there's anymore for me. I don't know, you'll never know what will happened in the future. Failure is choice i guess.
I've been having a hard time sleeping anyway. I'm not in the mood like I use to. In school I try to hide my sadness with what I use to do. I'm forever waiting for someone to trip upon the wires in my head and I will beat them. Constantly on the prowl. There's alot of faces I really hate in school. Fucking scenekids-poser-cunts!
I don't seem to be talking much at home too. Because I can't be bothered anymore. Seriously I don't know whats going to happen to me. Would it take me to be 7 feet deep in the ground so people will love me?
The three words phrase. 'I love you' seems to fade out of my life. =(
Voiced at 10:07 PM on
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Dear readers, its one of those sad posts that you usually see. I'm sorry but this is the place for me to let myself out. Either this or my guitar or Her. =( Back again here. I just realised its going to be soon enough that I will be turning 18 and I can't wait. But I don't have any plans for any celebration though. Maybe I should, but with really really close people. People who have touched my life, like were really there for me when I'm going to fall. People like, Tini, Lam, Zuu, Wani, Jana, Fir, Mahdi and some other more. Hmmmm *drum fingers*
I have a wish, only one wish and everynight I pray to God for that one wish. The one and only wish that I have been crying for. Some will know. Others don't. But only two can grant me that wish. God and Her. I'm really really down, but not out. I've given my last ounce of love to that someone even if I know that she doesn't feel for me like how I feel for her. However, everynight, I pray and pray and pray and pray. I'll keep on praying until something happen which only she and God knows when. I will beg to her but I can't force her. It was my fault for being late in the first place. I guess, I'm to blame. =(
Because you are the key to my lock, the tick to my clock. you know who you are. =)
Voiced at 10:12 PM on 13 October 2008
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Today was first day of fking school. I'm not over about what happened recently. I think I'll never get over it. God knows why. So today I couldn't concentrate in class. I hate school. F it. I don't care anymore~ In fact I'm even lazy to get on with life. Doesn't mean you fail in love, you fail in life. To me, that's how it works. I'm soon going to declare myself as a failure my life.
and here are some pics of last Friday and Saturday.
Voiced at 3:16 PM on
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Today I went to Raffles and took the same route I took with her on the 22nd of August. Maybe memories will heal me. I walked the same way we took. Then I had long john silvers like we did and then walked to marina square and had fried mars bars and then off to esplanade and sat all by myself. The only thing missing was her and the fireworks. Memories really made me teared my eyes. Lam told me not to go, because memories will just sakitkan hati. But who cares, me being me, I wanted to feel what I felt on the 22nd August even if the closest I get are the memories. =(
I did try to find her but no, to no avail. I'm a loser. A born loser for the fact. There's never a time when everybody will be happy rite? Maybe its just that I'm a complete failure~
Voiced at 12:33 AM on 12 October 2008
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Every dream that I had, that I want to make it happened, shattered everytime. I'm cursed for sure. Dad realy slapped some sense in me today. I so not looking forward to life right now. Now if you think that all my previous posts are really negative, wait till you read this. I just wanna walk right out of this world, cause everybody has a poison heart. I hate the kids at cityhall, spoiling every scene. Yes! I've concluded. Patience really really kills you. And for those who are waiting for someone to say something really valuable to them, don't wait for a long time nor do you rush. Find the right time to say it. Because you might get the biggest dissapointment of your whole life. Just because you think she's having a heartbreak doesn't mean she won't fall in love. So you better go for her before she go for someone else. don't be like me. I'mma straight fucking loser cunt asshole motherfucking shithead mug. Hmph!
Voiced at 1:52 PM on 11 October 2008
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what the hell! Do i really deserve this? This torture. I waited long enough and get this again! AGAIN!
Voiced at 1:45 AM on
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Would you keep climbing a mountain, that you know is crumbling slowly but yet it never stop. You, being blinded by what is at the peak of the mountain, tries your best to get to it without giving a toss that your path is gonna crumble down. So you keep climbing and climbing and climbing until you reach a point of time that you see that there is limited steps to take, one wrong step and BOOM! its the end for you.
Would you in the first place climb that mountain? It all depends on what is at the top, right? You see, that's how I see my life is crumbling down. To me, sooner or later I'll have to fall. However, I still want to get to the top. Now, I see me, halfway to the peak but I'm taking careful steps so that I won't trip and fall. Slowly and slowly.... suddenly out of no where, I see someone climbing the same mountain as I am. WTF! I know I had to rush, but if I do, I'll fall but if I don't, he will get what's on top first, you see? Now, is that confusing enough? ='(
Voiced at 12:54 AM on 10 October 2008
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Yesterday I went for a job interview, actually its not much of an interview. It was much of the preview of the company. Well, today is the interview, I wanna start working hard from now on. =) The job is really really simple to me but I can't write it here, because some unknown reasons and I'm lazy. So when I get the job and the pay. I'll tell you aite!
Voiced at 7:52 AM on 09 October 2008
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I'm just really really counting down to the day school reopens next week. Not that I'm really looking forward to it but just that I feel like I needed to take my mind off someone. I don't understand why girls just keep quiet to themselves and not tell anyone about their problems. What bothers me the most is that, some are just really keeping stuffs to themselves. Not that I'm mad or anything, just curious you know, you never know, whether she has something up her sleeves to do to you. Be it good or bad. I'm just looking for to 30th Oct and then NOVEMBER! walah!
Voiced at 8:59 AM on 07 October 2008
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Today I woke up at 6 and got myself washed up, and bought breakfast and got ready to go to Kampong! The rest met up at my void deck and off we went to M'sia. We had another quick breakfast and then it was straight to Grandpa's house. When we reached there it was all sun shiny! After a few hours, it started to rain and yup, it was heavy. Although it was already raining, they still wanted to continue to go to the rest of the houses around there. I was really mad after I got my socks all soaked and I had to wear shoes with no socks! After visiting the other house, it was already getting late, so we decided to grab a great great dinner which turned out to be the suckiest dinner ever, not that the food is not delicious, the service sucks big time, stupid fucking cunt. He can't understand what we wanted him to do.HAHA. After we got our stomaches filled, it was home time! and now I'm home!! Its gonna be almost a month to our next gig and I hate to chill. I mean, I'd love to put up the best show, but some people just love to settle for little. fuck 'em.
Voiced at 10:47 PM on 05 October 2008
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Yesterday was Hari Raya! Great day, met them cousins. took pictures of the family! but ermm, brother wasn't there, he had to work, sucks though. When to granny's in the morning and around afternoon, everybody was at my house. Yeah! Ate alot though, seriously, I'm getting fatter! okay forget it!
So today, was to meet all my dad's uncle, the old peeps, but managed to go to only 2 houses. My dad tend to catch up with the old times with his uncles, I don't mind, because I do learn something from it. The way they tell stories about the past, its like, very fun!
After all that, we grab late dinner at RASA 21 and went home after that~
Voiced at 1:00 AM on 03 October 2008
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A whole month has passed, the holiest month of the year. All behind us, all the sadness and happiness that has came with it are behind us. Here come syawal, a month of kesyukuran. Today, while I was having break fast, I shed a tear to remember those who have gone before, those family members that I treasure dearly. Every year, I'd shed tears on the eve of Raya. Even when I'm praying, I dare not open my eyes because it was full of tears, tears not of only sadness, but also happiness. This year is the most meaningful Ramadhan in my whole life. Thus, I'll remember it in my heart forever. To those muslims out there, I wish you all a Selamat Hari Raya, forgive all my past sins as not one sin is unforgivable. If you are my enemy, than I have the least to say to you. Have good days ahead my friends!
Voiced at 12:04 AM on 01 October 2008