STORIES
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take her away, brighten up her day.
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girlfriend...girlfriend...*scratches chin*
very random this post is.
I'm seriously very bored, nervous, happy, sad, everything! The gig is on saturday! YAY! I've got a plan, a big plan! Today had our last practice for this saturday and so far everythings going fine.
So far, life's been really really quiet since end of last month. No more dreaming about how good life would be, because its not really getting better. Yet its getting worse. I don't mind, I'll try to live with what I have now. My life is brimming with mistakes, mistakes leads to lessons, lessons lead to a better life, supposedly? Nah. I think God has got a plan for every single human being. Ahah! My time is not yet here but I can imagine the future! I'm really distorted right now, I'm forcing everything that is positive to my brain, I mean from my brain. I need to be strong! I'm just feeling down but I keep things going, nope, not stopping. Anyways, I've started to feel the positive side of life, now that I'm cutting down on meals and also started jogging. I feel goooooood!
BUT!
The heart is still not okay. Nope, not going to be okay, I guess. What the hell am I saying. Wait! The heart is going to heal soon, it takes time especially what it had to go through 4 times this year! 4 times! Wooo! I'm still standing, with my friends, my mates, my family, my brother and myself. I stand up and hell I know I'm going to fall again! BUT WHO GIVES A DAMN! btw, guess what, never lie to yourself about your feelings, orang tua2 cakap, makan dalam.
I'm really having a distorted mindset
Voiced at 9:35 PM on 05 November 2008