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Selfish.
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One said things happened for a reason.
Even how stupid the reason is, it is a reason. Right? I'm still not out of the trauma that really hit me right on the face recently. Come on, I was being me. However, my eyes are wide opened now that everything had gone your way and not mine. I'll just finish my days hanging out with my mates by the shop, or I'll be down by the driving centre. I still can't bring myself to go out, have the kind of fun that I had few months ago. Everything did change including me, you and everybody. I'm just being more realistic in life because I've been spending too much time in dreamland.
Everything has an end, and hell I know this was coming. Only that I was once the guy who can't accept the fact that I lost. I lost my way. Yes, now I feel the feeling that I've been trying to avoid all this while, which is walking alone. Not literally, just that, I can't find someone to be there for me anymore, and I'm glad nobody really rely on me that much too. So yes, I really really wish I had ended it way before it started. =(
I know someone will feel that pinch on their butts when they read this. You broke me down to pieces. Now I'm a bummer. With nothing to look forward to. Nothing to dream of. Nothing to achieve because everything is already down in the drain. I'm sorry, I'm still broken. You don't have to care because I know you will not. Just that this is what I've kept for so long, this is what I stood strong to withstand. This pain and agony. God knows how it feels. Nobody else does.
*sigh*
Voiced at 12:41 AM on 17 December 2008