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SENTOASA- ISLAND LIFE!

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Yesterday I spent the whole day with kampong mates, at Sentosa, we met up at 9 in the morning because brother woke up late. Then we did some last minute planning and off we went! 3 cars! Around 15 people! Then we reached there and didnt waste much time settling down. Football was our first run. Then we had alot of fun watching chicks tooo~ Then it was time to head into the water! It was high tide and the current was strong. We swam more than we covered in distance. It was tiring, then we went to walked to the otherside of Pahlawan Beach to watch chicks! HAHA! They were a handful of models too~ Then we played football again and swam again and football again and swam again for like I don't know how many times. Then, it rained! So we waited for the rain to stop and then we swam again for the last time. Before changing and packing to head home. Short story but it was a long day. =O)

Voiced at 1:11 PM on 30 March 2009

It was nice!

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So I slept late but woke up early! HAHA!
I'm normal to 7 hours of sleep! I can't sleep any longer, unless I'm really realy lazy. So ya, I slept at 3 last morning, chatting with a friend of mine, shared really really sad stories, and ya! The friend was great, we ended up all teary, HAHA! DARN! MEMORIES. Then I just realised that, never look at someone from the outside because its really really not the same as what they are inside, trust me! =)

Voiced at 11:26 AM on 25 March 2009

So little time~

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Give me an image of the beautiful life that you have been looking forward to since you were a kid. Tell me a wonderful story about your future life.

I'll tell you, not all lives turned out as they are imagined or planned. Not all wonderful story have a happy ending. My My. What have happened to LIFE?

Tell me one thing, is it the fact that I'm just a loner, a different person than anyone of you, to make me feel left out. Tell me, is it because I'm not rich, that's why I can't hang around with you and your mates. Tell me, is it because I'm just another ugly person in the middle of nowhere, trying my best to be somebody but nobody's looking.

I'm pretty bored rotting at home and doing nothing much! REALLY? I wished I had a companion.

Voiced at 12:13 PM on 23 March 2009

This is what you'll get.

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I can't be bothered anymore, seriously! For a minute there, I lost myself.
I'm deep undersurf, someone, pull me quick, don't let me drown.

To the extend of vanity, I really can't be bothered to go have my evening runs anymore, I can't be bothered of getting fatter, because I don't see the reasons to make a change, when you are just a step behind everybody else in EVERYTHING.
Maybe a hand shake with carbon monoxide will do it? hahaha. I look so tired even when I'm happy. I don't need all this crap do I, all this wondering whats going to happen next. I'm need to rest, rest in peace. =)

Voiced at 7:29 PM on 22 March 2009

Hope and Victory!

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Its worth fighting for victory.

So today was really really busy and dirty, washing dishes and talking trash with them mates. It was Zuhair's sister's wedding and he needed a short help from us before the real kendarat comes. So as we were much help, we were much mess too. =) Ended the day with more trash-talking. I was having thoughts to town tonight, but kinda got lazy. I mean, just sit there and talk trash again. Malas deh!

So I ended up going online and talking to Tini! =) Bored lah!

In the lonely days, who do you look for? Who do you make an effort to meet up and talk to, when its all over and done with. =)

Voiced at 8:14 PM on 21 March 2009

Keep it to your land.

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Wherever you go, whatever you do!
You can't seem to know, you can't seem to be true.
You shout, but you are not loud
You say you are not out, but you are not proud

You tell me, we can make it together
You told me to keep faith and watch each other
You make us look like a bunch of crap
And God, I didn't fucking know it was a trap

But you! You bailed! You fell!
You bite the dust, you lost your trust.
You get yourself some pussy.
You end up being cunt. You are forever a cunt!

You made the world look small
With your talks, you are tall
You made people believe your lies
because they think that you had live the LIFE

Why the fuck you hypocrite
What the fuck you hypocrite
How the fuck you hypocrite
When the fuck you hypocrite

I'm dissapointed!
I'm not mad, I'm just curious and furious

Voiced at 2:29 PM on 18 March 2009

Fall back!

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There you go, 3 months into this fucken year, and I'm off into that give-a-fuck-or-not mood again. AGAIN! Pathetically yes!

So yes, I was there, hoping this year was the BEST year of my life, but no! SOMEONE had to fuck it around, real bad, and now, I'm feeling all FUCKED UP! OH GEE! THANKS ALOT! Come on face the fact, that even if you are that DAMN good! Why show off? I MEAN! If you are even more musically talented than me, then, I'll give this a pass, but not now. You can't even fucking play a note, or sing a phrase! I mean, come on, you are walking around, carrying the 'pride' if you like to call it so much, showing people that we can do it better, there's no use! Really, people should know the history and roots of this country's sub-culture, if they don't, why educate them, just let them be posers!

I'm not really really, NOT in the mood to entertain crap from you. You are just another person, who's just passing around, goofing off with your selfishness and I-am-the-best-of-the-best attitude! I GIVE NO FUCKING CREDIT TO THAT!
HAHA! Lets face it, every single one of you must be thinking who the fuck I'm talking about, it is for someone but its for almost everybody, ALMOST! Do your thinking, put your assumptions aside, please, don't be childish. I'm just mad at you, you and you, and you too! Ouh there you too!

I'm just too afraid to type out names, because, I know this is my blog, but obviously everybody moronic fella, is going to pass by and the story, I swear, the story will change! So yeah, I'll play fucking safe, because, its those who ate the chilli who will taste its spiciness! Damn, straight from the malay textbook!

You see, enough about me, ouh wait, there wasn't even about me in the first place, it was about the people, the crew, the kids, the crowd, the mates, the chicks, the gfs, the bfs and all the other motherfuckers! There you see, when I expressed this, people will think, Yat is crazy, no I'm not! I'm just not in the right state of mind, to think about stuffs like this, they make me go ARGH!!

Then when I sit down and think about this ALONE! I'll come out with the answer myself, just like the day I got PRETT! Just like that, I took the same route and think again what was my mistake and I found it! OKAY! Then there was her her her and her, and there were they and them and us and her, and him and me and you! You see! This thing won't end!

And Farhana just showed me something, "we got to make our own happy ending!" Isn't that nice to hear for once. To come to think about it, happy endings is what people want for themselves, but when they get it for themselves, maybe its not so happy ending for the others, you see? THAT IS SO TRUE!

So I guess, I'll keep on blogging, you guys keep on reading, and IF you really really notice, my life is dead boring! That's why I don't really post about my everyday happenings except for.......
=)

And ya! FUCK YOU AGAIN! HAPPY DAYS!

Voiced at 12:36 AM on

For the pussy and the dollars.

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I don't really really see that path that I've made of this life. I mean, to continue with it, I'm done with tunes, just wanting the band to be free. Well, the more I talk, the more I'll get mad, for what, I'll wait.

So lets talk about happiness. I've found it here, in the vicinity of my home and hood. Fuck the kids uptown! Seriously, I don't need them, I'm sure, they waste my time, they waste my fucking money, what for? You see, you hold on to your pride all you want, I'm keeping mine, I'm not showing off, I'm not telling people where I stand, what I fight for and what I believe in. My boots are still laced in yellow, what more you want for me? I keep my hair because I don't believe in shaving it anymore! Shaving your head, and putting on your boots, thats what makes you think that you are a skinhead, how about the life? You have it? If you do, I'll have to give to you mate, you're brilliant, but no.

Takde guna kalau kau shave rambut kau, pakai boot, abeh panggil diri kau skinhead, when all this while, you are going to draw the line but nothing happens. I don't get you. Nope. Million times, I don't really get your agenda.

So FUCK YOU!
you know who you are. Don't come asking me, who it is! They know who they are.
Like you always say, Keep the Faith, let me ask you mate, whats your faith?

Voiced at 7:47 PM on 17 March 2009

King me.

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Today was really really boring~
Yesterday was too. I mean, going out to town and just sat at Forum for like a few hours with mates, nothing much to talk about, I was not in my mood to do so. I wondered who was watching me. Then I had to leave early because I needed some lone time.
Yes, I'm getting fatter, because I eat when I'm upset, is that wrong? Of course it is! I need to be happy, but with what? I don't know!

I just realised that school is really really out! HAHA! Then I had to find work, but what job?
Damn!

Voiced at 6:24 PM on 14 March 2009

Bring me to your heart.

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Yesterday was the last day in school! Fucking yes! I dunno I feel bored when there's no school you know, no JATOH BOI, not much laughs and everything.

Yesterday I met someone too and we spent the whole sweet day walking around town. She's really really nice to be with, =)

And yesterday was supposed to be Wednesday! HAHA

Thursday was spent with them kampong mates with RISK!

Voiced at 12:32 AM on 13 March 2009

EXAMS OVER~~ NOT!

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Okay today was CPS paper, gone and not gonna remember anything!
Ah yes, had mcdonalds today with them classmates.
Then, went to sent my fucking Sony Ericsson phone to its shithole in Simei to get it repaired! Damn the phone, I'm not gonna have a Sony Ericsson for a phone again. Maybe gonna change to Nokia, hmm. Soon! haha! okayokay!

Voiced at 1:40 PM on 10 March 2009

WAWAWOOO!

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okay! Quick one quick one!
Friday I went karaoke with them mates, then I lost my wallet, FUCK UP!
Saturday was out at the wedding for 8 fucking hours! And somebody return all the stuffs in my wallet and put it at my front door, but no wallet, so ya.
Sunday went out to find magazine for Ais, and ya! FOUND IT!
YAWN!

Voiced at 11:06 AM on 09 March 2009

=)

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May God bless your soul, I'm sorry.

Voiced at 5:03 PM on 04 March 2009

Sweet day~

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Went to meet someone yesterday~
Then it came to me for once again. That feeling again.
Went to watch Marley and Me and it was really really great.
Sad ending though, very sad ending.
And we had lunch.
then went almost all around town just get them adidas shoes.
Then we headed home. Such a subtle day~ =)

Voiced at 12:28 PM on

Fry-day, Setan-day, Sun(dal)-day

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Everything happened at night! HAHA!

Friday was a night out with bro and kampong mates to Henderson Waves, as usual, bought some makan and off we went, then came back at 6 in the morning *by then it was Saturday already* then slept and woke up at 7 to get ready for prac, and then LUCKILY I passed! TP's in a months time.

Saturday afternoon, went to get project stuffs. Home again! Washed car with bro, then had a 2 hour nap, NAP okay, not sleep! HAHA! Then it was time for SHINE! Which turned out to be a disaster, there was a heavy rain and the gig had to be cancelled! DAMN! Then went to mate's chalet party! Ate alot of steaks though. Didn't sleep till 5 and went home! This time HAD GREAT GREAT SLEEP!

UNTIL....

SUNDAY!
6 hours of project time, 2 hours of rest time, 1 hour of pool with mates and home again! SLEEP AGAIN!
hahah

today monday boring!

Voiced at 5:55 PM on 02 March 2009